TRUST: BRITNEY BE KNOWING
"It sounds like you got trust issues."
Ya'll remember when we talked about vulnerability a few weeks ago? Well, I feel like that and this week's topic of TRUST go hand in hand. When I put my trust into someone, I expect them to do right by me. And when you don't do right by Britney, you gotta catch these hands. I trusted you, even though you got a booty chin. Just kidding, I've never trusted anyone with a booty chin.
So look, I'm a bit of a loner. Always have been (See "LONELINESS" post). I never felt like I needed a whole lot of people around me because I don't fool with ya'll like that anyway. I can always tell when something is off about a person. I often try to see things through and tell myself "Maybe it's not what you think" but every time I've tried to give someone the benefit of the doubt, they end up showing me why I can't trust people. Let me see if I can give you a short list:
1. People be hiding entire families - No, really. Spouses, children, pets. And no, this doesn't have to be someone you're dating. People are shady.
2. People be stealing - I know somebody that still owe me 20 dollars and never called me back after I requested it, it's been about 3 years now.
3. People be crazy - Do I really have to explain this one? We would be here all day.
There are only a few people in this world that I can truly say I can count on. Too many times, especially in the past couple of years, I've found myself in situations where I felt like I'm better off by myself anyway. Here's the thing, when I allow someone into my space, be it as a friend, a business partner or a companion, I'm automatically giving you the benefit of the doubt. I'm trusting you to be who you say you are and what you say you're about.
Family, the moral of the story is, I got trust issues and I need ya'll to mention me in your prayers tonight. I understand that not everyone is the devil, because I have a nice circle of folks in my life that truly have my back. But some of ya'll be trash.
I'm working on it. But I'm watching my back. Britney be knowing.
-BRIT