CHANGE THE WAY YOU DEAL

"Whatever will be, will be."

Okay, I'm going to be all the way real with ya'll. Sometimes, it's hard for me to "grin and bare it". When Change happens unexpectedly, I want to cry, cuss, lock myself into a room, turn off my phone, eat a bunch of stuff that's gonna make me fat and feel sorry for myself.

The reality is, I can't always do that because I have a job to go to and bills to pay which won't allow me to stay in bed drowning in my disappointment. And that's a good thing because anxiety attacks are no joke.

Photo: Me, I took this.

Let me be transparent: Something that I always let stress me out is money. Every weekend, I sit and redo my budget to figure a way to pay my bills ahead of time so that I won't get caught up so easily. Sometimes, that works in my favor, most times, it doesn't. When that happens, I get upset and find myself in a stank attitude for a few hours, thinking about how I'm damn near 30 and just knew that I would be in a much better financial situation at this age. But, I always have to stop and think, what's the point of this?

Here's a short exercise that I go through every week by asking myself a few simple questions:

1."Can I change the amount on my check each week?" 
No.

2."Can I make more money magically appear from the sky?" 
I wish, but no.

3. "Can I push my 30th birthday back 2 more years until I get my sh** together?" 
Nah, son.

But....

1. "Can I make a payment arrangement?"
Yes.

2. "Can I ask my Mama for some gas money if I'm running short this week?" 
Probably.

3. Can I treat myself with the little $50 I got left over that's not enough for a bill but is enough for brunch?"
Oh, Imma do that anyway. Imma do that anyway, cause that's how I am. 

Listen ya'll, the moral of the story is, sometimes, you can't change what you were dealt, so you got to change the way you deal. My thighs have NEVER not touched, Ive just accepted that I'm always going need the bigger size jeans. It is what it is. Appreciate where you are right now, it makes for an even greater celebration when the journey unfolds.

See ya'll next week.

-BRIT